Some me time...

Micah's gone for the night, and I decided to have some quality "me" time. So I went and bought the "Sex and the City" movie, bought some popcorn and Twizzlers, and cuddled up on the couch. (Without Fluffy, Micah. Don't freak out. I didn't let her on the furniture). I love that movie. It makes you appreciate your girlfriends and what they give you that your guy is just incapable of providing.

I mean... don't get me wrong. Micah's amazing. Fantastic listener, funny, sweet, all that good stuff. But when I need to whine about my hair, or I need to shop... he just doesn't cut it. :) My friends and I decided that we're each a Sex and the City character. I'm Charlotte... but not. I'm all idealistic, and happy, and optimistic, and in love with love like she is. But I'm not QUITE as easily offended as her, and I certainly don't have her perfect Audrey Hepburn class. I wish. I also wish I were more demure. But I'm not. I'm silly and goofy and awkward at times, and I somehow convinced the best guy in the world to marry me. Lucky me!! :)

I was about to write how behind I am in school, but it's Friday night, and I REFUSE to think about school right now. It's off limits.

Instead, I'll just say how freaking EXCITED I am that "Twilight" is coming out next weekend!!!!! You know how I love Harry Potter (and have read each Harry Potter book AT LEAST three times), but Harry Potter is missing the epic love story that Twilight has. And I am just so ready to see them in the movie. YAY!

Alright... time for bed. :)

XOXO

It's Saturday night...

...And I'm blogging/writing 10 pages of my soon-to-be 60-page paper. It's due on Monday, and I've REALLY got to get going on it. It's so funny, but I really do love to write. I just forget. It's like working out. I absolutely HATE getting my running shoes out and putting them on, but the minute I do I feel so great and enjoy working out. It's getting over that initial, "but I don't WANT to get off my lazy butt and do anything productive" feeling that's the toughest. Hence my procrastination on this paper. So I've had my butt glued to this couch all day today, researching and writing, and tomorrow and Monday will just be a repeat. My own fault, completely.

I got all my bridal portraits back. YAY! I really love them, and it's KILLING me because I want to show everyone! I'm trying to resist the urge, though. So don't ask me, or I'll lose my cool and let you see them, and then the whole dramatic moment of walking down the aisle will be ruined. :) P.S. My photographer is really amazing and artistic, and I would seriously recommend him to anyone. Plus he's the nicest guy ever and very easygoing. I like that. I'm a low-key bride to the max (definitely to a fault because I'm not concerned with ANY of the details, and someone needs to be). But I hate that all I can talk about lately is the wedding. It's silly.

I think my cat has found a new "person." She follows Micah around all the time. When we sit on the couch to watch t.v. together, she always runs to HIS feet so HE can pet her. I try not to be bitter about it. But he doesn't even LIKE her!! Everyone loves Micah best... I get it. How can you not? He's perfect and wonderful. But I've taken care of that cat since I was FIVE and I'll be danged if she's going to abandon me now! :) I'm on a mission to steal back her love. I'll let you know how it goes.

Alright... it's quitting time for tonight. I'm an old lady and my brain doesn't work past 9:00. Sleep tight.

XOXO

Thoughts

So I certainly did NOT vote for Obama. I voted for McCain in some person's garage yesterday morning. Literally. The listing online said "residence garage," and I assumed it was a parking garage or something (which still would have been weird). But I drove up and there were definitely electronic polling booths set up in this guy's garage in this shady-McShaderson neighborhood. Anyway... I digress.

So I was certainly disappointed last night when Fox called the election for Obama. But it's not like I didn't know it was coming. I had been bracing myself for the moment. But I have to be completely honest. Listening to his speech actually brought tears to my eyes. I don't know why, but I was just completely moved by the fact that our country could rise above over two centuries of racism and elect a black President. I need to reiterate... I do NOT do NOT do NOT support Obama's policies or politics ONE iota. I find the idea of partial-birth abortion disgusting, I do NOT support his idea of over-taxing people who go to school, work hard and make lots of money, and I am fearful other countries will see his lack of emphasis on the military as an opportunity to strike.

BUT, having said all of that. Everyone who knows me knows that I am one hundred percent against racism of any kind. It's the most ignorant thing I can think of, and I just cannot and will not tolerate it. And to see our country embrace a black man... a smart, charismatic, patriotic black man who loves his wife and children... I cannot help but be thankful for that.

I suppose another distinctive feature of my personality is that I'm ALL about the silver lining and finding some way to be positive... especially when it comes to things I cannot change. And I'm sure this is me trying to find a way to be happy about the outcome of the election. But for anyone who's really struggling with the outcome of the election, this is just something to think about. This and the fact that he has already been elected. Nothing productive can come from sitting and whining about it. :)

A few things...

I'm completely done with interviewing and have picked my jobs out for the summer! Yay!! That's a big freaking stress relief. I kept going back and forth, and I finally just decided, and it feels SO good! I'll be spending the entire summer in Dallas, and I know it will be so hard to be away from Micah for so long (he has to stay in Houston for summer school), but I think it's the best decision for my career. So I went for it. No clue where I'll be staying yet. But I'll figure something out, I'm sure.

So there's that. Let's see what else? Well my cake lady is apparently out of business and ran off with my deposit. So I have to find another baker. Which sucks. But it's still better than it could be. At least they went out of business now and not a week before the wedding. AND, I had thought of some differences I wanted to make to the design of the cake, and now I can! Silver lining!

School is going ok. I'm (of course) super busy with everything, but it feels like it's slowing down a bit. Which is nice, because I need to start gearing up for finals. The pressure is kind of off, because I already have jobs for next summer, and they're not going to care whether my grades stay exactly the same (as long as they don't drop drastically). But it's kind of a pride thing. I just want to do well. So I'm hoping all of these other distractions don't kill my GPA. Anyway... enough of that.

I'm getting married in less than two months. SERIOUSLY! Everyone should be getting their invitations in the mail soon. I just can't believe it's coming so quickly. I'm SO ready to be married. I mean, the wedding is great and all that, and it'll be fun to be the princess for a day, but I just want to be Mrs. Micah Hargrave already. When I can sign things "Ryan Hargrave" and it be for real (not like when I wrote it on the back of all my notebooks in middle school and high school) it will probably be the best feeling ever. He's my dream. :) If he's all I get in life, I'll feel like I have been richly blessed.

One other thing. I'm worried about my aunt. She's having some health problems, so if you think about it, say a prayer for my Aunt Gem.

I sound like...

... a broken record. I'm STILL tired. I took a two-hour nap today and am STILL sleepy!
BUT, I won't bore anyone with my incessant whining. It's not attractive.

I had my first Dallas callback interview yesterday. They put me up in the Westin City Center hotel downtown, and it was REALLY nice! I slept like a log. I absolutely loved the firm. It's a large national firm with a small Dallas office. So you get the best of both worlds: the salary and resources of a large firm with a small firm, relaxed atmosphere. The bad news: they have a small summer program, so my chances are slim. Other problem, out of, I think, six summer associates last summer, they only extended full-time offers to two of them. That's not a great statistic for me to hang my hat on. I'm worried that if I were to forego working at another Dallas firm and work at this firm, I'd really kick myself if I didn't get an offer at the end of next summer. PLUS, they have ZERO women partners. Which also scares me a little. Anyway, I'm just kind of apprehensive. But I have three more Dallas callbacks, so I'm hoping I will just fall in love with one of the firms and that will make my decision easy.

Other news... ? I'm so boring right now it's ridiculous. I picked up my veil at David's Bridal yesterday! It's very simple and pretty. And I can't WAIT to wear it! Micah pointed out tonight that the wedding is less than three months away! He asked me if I'm getting cold feet. But I'm so ready. I've been ready for a long time. I feel incredibly lucky to have found the love of my life so young. I get to spend the rest of my life with him, and I just don't know how in the world I deserve that. Some people don't find the right one until much later in their lives, and some never find the right one at all. That I get Micah from now until we're old and gray is just amazing. God has blessed me beyond belief. I think about that a lot. It's not that I haven't gone through difficult times in my life... I completely have. But I can look back on every difficult moment and see the Lord leading me through it... carrying me at times. I have been protected and provided for every step of the way. I hope no one looks at my life and calls me lucky. Or even a hard worker. Any good in my life has been ordained by God, and I am undeserving of it. Just something to think about. :)